That afternoon Hidan and I made our trek to the closest
village to get groceries. I made a list of what I needed. Hidan was just there
to help me carry all of the groceries. I planned to clean out the rank kitchen
later.
We made
small talk on the way to the village. He always turned his attention away from
me. I was starting to wonder if he thought I was beautiful, or maybe he was
just so disgusted by my ugliness that he couldn’t look at me.
We it to
the village, both of us in disguise and we directed ourselves to the super
market. I had my long auburn hair down and I was wearing a black dress. It
wasn’t much of a disguise but people around here don’t know me and they
certainly don’t know that I’m now a forced member of the Akatsuki.
Hidan’s
disguise was better. He had his hair messy and in his face with a headband
covering his right eye and he wore the traditional jonin outfit. He pulled it
off pretty well and it made my mind wonder to what he looked like before he
became an S-rank criminal. And a worshiper of Jashin.
I shopped around
the market with Hidan following me. I knew what I needed and he didn’t know
what was even in the kitchen!
After a
long day of shopping we made our way to the gates. I didn’t get many groceries;
god knows how long I’ll be sticking around anyway! Hidan wasn’t very
talkative, which made me really nervous.
I knew jus
the way to break the ice however. “Let’s go to the park! I hear it’s really
pretty there.” I said joyfully and giddy. Hidan just looked at me, so I grabbed
his hand and led him to the park. There was a fountain at the center, we sat on
a bench.
“Look at
it!” I sighed in awe. It was dark so the fountain was lit up. “Yes…” Hidan’s
voice trailed off and he stared intently into my eyes. I stared back and he
drew closer and closer to me until I just closed the gap with our lips.
Hidan
kissed back but then quickly pulled away. I looked at him with a sorrowful
look. Hidan just got up and said “We have to get back…” and I just nodded and
followed. What was that about?
When we
finally made it back it was late. No one was awake except for us. Hidan helped
me put away the groceries and walked me to my room. “Thanks for coming today.”
I smiled at him. He grunted a you’re welcome and turned to me. He kissed me yet
again.
I wrapped
my arms around his neck deepening the kiss. His tongue prodded at the bottom on
my lip begging for entrance and I let him in. We both fought for dominance but he
eventually won. Hidan started walking us to his room, I didn’t know how he
could walk and kiss at the same time but he managed.
When we got
to his room he pushed me onto the bed. We kept kissing while articles of
clothing flew off. First my shirt, then his shirt, then my bra then his pants
and so forth. We were both nude sooner or later and things picked up from there.
I regret now not stopping when I should’ve.
I ended up
waking up in Hidan’s bed that morning. I was disgusted with myself and I
quickly got out of there after putting back on all of my clothes What would my mother say? I thought
running back to my room. I quietly shut the door and blushed. I had just made a
fool out of myself… And possibly a slut.
I turned on
the water for a shower and I stayed in the water until it grew cold. I never
felt so dirty. Maybe we didn’t do anything? You’re
a whore, I told myself, Now
everyone’s going to think you’re easy. I sighed. Let’s just hope no one finds out, a part of me argued. I think I love him… another part said.
And I started to believe this part.
I got out
of the bathroom and put on some clothes. I put on a comfortable pair of skinny
jeans with a polka-dotted shirt. I looked in the mirror and sighed. Time to make breakfast, I sulked.
As I was
putting my hair up I heard a knock at the door. “Come in!” I called and I
headed for the door to twist the handle and open it. It was Hidan, I felt my
heart stop beating. He was just so perfect in everyway, I immediately
remembered last night and looked at my feet sheepishly.
“Hi…” I
blushed. “Listen,” Hidan began. “You don’t mean a thing to me. You were just a
fling. Jashin wouldn’t want me to be near you and I don’t want me near you.
Jashin would want me to have a prettier girl than you.” And with that he left. He
just slammed the door on my face and with that slam I felt my fragile heart
shatter. Good to know I was used! He seemed unfazed by the situation… I felt so
broken and confused. I never knew what if felt like to be used until now…
I brought
my hand up to my mouth and started to cry. I hugged myself and cried even
harder, it just wasn’t fair. But it is just my luck. I needed my friends and
family more than anything right now.
I
especially needed my mother…
TO be
continued!
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